Four

You feel sort of bad because this is not the worst thing to happen in your life.
Right now you feel worse than when she died.
You think it's possibly because when that happened, you knew and understood what you were feeling. The pain and grief were painted all over you and it was easy to see your reflection.

But now you aren't even sure what to think. Your stomach always feels empty and you know it's not from a lack of food.
It must be from a lack of something else.
You want to see where romance could take you but you've learned to keep your hopes down.
If only you could sleep the rest of your life away.

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